Each month I start with every intention of sitting down to write out at least four posts a month. And each month that task gets replaced by other things. Grocery shopping, picking up the house, paying bills, yoga class, prayer, and so much more. With summer here and having the kiddos home with me all day, its been a struggle to find time for myself, but I know that is what I need! Writing has always been a way to calm myself, my schedule, my busy, and my thoughts. To find stillness.
Transformation. It’s been my word for 2019. So far many things in my life, that haven’t served me well, have been easily transformed. The big stuff... not so easily. For example, putting my children above my own self-care. This is hard, mom guilt sets in, “you can find spare time later” thoughts creep in, and the excuses pile up quick! Truth is, when I’m fully taking care of myself- everything else is easier. Life is easier to juggle. I’m in a better mood, which helps the whole family be more cohesive throughout the day. This is just one of those areas that needs some transformation this year. I’m a work in progress! Aren’t we all?
I need little breaks from the hustle and bustle of daily routine especially with all we had going on the last month of school and extracurricular activities (seriously though!!). Cannot believe we are halfway into June and we’ve only had a small number of rainless days in Oklahoma warm enough to swim or enjoy the parks. Yesterday was beautiful. We took advantage. We played outside. Planted some corn kernels (so fun to watch their imaginations run wild). Lastly, We went swimming with Breelyn’s bbf who is moving away this Saturday. It was sweet to watch them play and laugh and challenge each other to dive to the bottom for toys. My point is, it doesn't have to been a big planned event/vacation to make me stop and appreciate all that my life is right now. It’s challenging, it’s messy, it’s beautiful, and it’s mine. I am finding it’s the smaller things that just happen, that bring me the most joy. The super planned stuff... it makes me a stress bubble and even I don’t want to be around that!
I’m learning to let go of all the things I cannot and do not want to control. Establishing boundaries were they are necessary. Opening up to the possibility of opportunity and success where I least expect it. Leaning in to God’s word, His guidance (because I know I cannot do it on my own), and believing His Grace is all I need when I fail. Because I will fail. Everyday. I will fall short in one area or another, but I also know I have Grace to try again tomorrow.
I want to hear from you... tell me. Where could your life use some transformation right now? What ways are your taking time for yourself this year?